i've seen a shooting star... after a long time. after those rainy, dark and cloudy nights finally one star came and asked for my wish. what to wish? hahaha i dont' know yet. i actually have a lot of wish. from material things to the things that are beyond reality. from macbook to iphone, from being an astronomer to the CEO of the Apple company, in short, from reality to fantasy.
i have a guy friend whom i share some of my thoughts because he's so mature in terms of life. really. i remember one time, i was talking to him, "Dan! shit, i really want DSLR camera! just one! i just hope i could afford to buy one" (while shaking his shoulders really hard). i was envied to those people taking up Digital arts and design courses for they have their own cameras. photography and arts really are my passion. i don't know anyone who would give me such. he then said "don't worry..one day you'll own one of those. don't stop wishing coz you start to attract positive karmas. and if you posses those karmas, you'll see. wish will be granted" (while shaking my shoulders even harder making my head bounce up and down). that keeps me inspired of wishing.
sometimes, a single wish is accompanied by greater disappointments. the more you wish, the more you hope, the more you fantasize, the more you create bridge from the world of reality to the world of fantasy. some people wish it would happen, some people want it to happen. i've realized they are all wrong. why wish? if you have the puissance and control in making it happen? a wish is desire without an attempt. right? :) hmm, but inspite of this, i don't stop wishing since some of my wishes are not dreams. IT IS ALL PLANNED.
still don't know what to wish. but thank God. i saw another beautiful and amazing shooting star. maybe i'll think of it before i go to sleep. :)
TAKE NOTE: pray before you wish :)))
it was a bit too nippy Friday evening. the storm passed, and i think new storm is about to come here in the Philippines. unforeseenly, summer has ended quite early. too early unlike those past years. trees are leafing out because of rains instead of summer aridity. i was sweeping those fallen leaves a while ago when the rain finally stopped. it was quite hard sweeping those leaves since some parts of our yard aren't cemented. so muddy and slippery. haha. month of May just started and i thought this will be a skin-burning month. well not. so coool and i'm lovin' it! wahaha. no need for me to turn on the fan or aircon while sleeping. a great power-saving month i guess. this coolness, though, makes me a little dormant and sluggish in taking a bath. brrrr.
the only and last movie for this day. BIG FISH. A story about a son trying to learn more about his dying father by reliving stories and myths his father told him about himself. really nice, unique, enigmatic movie with a great storyline. worth a watch, though, it consumed 2 hours of my expected sleep of 8 hours. haha.
2:13 ante meridiem.
i have these RANDOM thoughts.
im awake. obviously. i've been in nocturnal state since last last night. this i think is the effect of too much devotion to coffee. i am a coffeeholic. but since summer this year have started almost 2 months ago, i stopped drinking coz it's kinda hot. life goes on and climate do change. i thought this would be that ohh-sooo-hot summer well i guess not. global warming is considered as the only and great cause why the rain is here! so unseasonable and untimely. the reason i persist of drinking coffee. again.
is someone out there looking for a barista? maybe i could? lol. (dream on clariza. haha)
and oh how i miss summer last year.
last summer, i get to see my old friends and highschool friends, at least weekly? and i got plenty of cellphone load to be in touch. this year is exactly opposite of that of last summer. i want summer 2008 back! really.
random thoughts:
uhh we could have been happier this summer if THAT swimming was pursued. i feel blue, gloomy, sad, downhearted or whatever you call that whenever i remember you, or the others, saying "our friendship will be kept longer than forever". some used to say "walang limutan ah" but what now? maybe they even forgot my whole name. lol. haha. we've tried hard just to revive this so-called family. but what now? not even showing your shadow? presence dude! all we need is a bit of your presence! could you exert some effort people? i just hope, you still have that FAITH in holding the words "once a pascal, always a pascal"
see i told you. i'm in RANDOM. lol haha
btw, still not yet done in making my blogger theme. i mean, i'm not yet starting it. maybe, one of these days... you'll see. i'm a great procrastinator, and that's my worst disease. can someone pull me out? lol. kiddin'. of course i can, and i'll do it myself :] babu
summer this year is still good. not that oh-so-boring. maybe too early to say it. i'm halfway to the closure of this supposed to be VACATION.
considerably, i enjoy this summer class. in a class of 29 students, we're just 5 gals. me, elyssa, labli, cha and the other i-dunno-who. mam Dampil is way and miles better compared to my profe-sucks in algebra for almost a year. every minute is a new york minute for me. normally, Trigo is taken 2-3 months or maybe 4.. hell. i am taking a 6-week-class considering only mondays,wednesdays and fridays. definitely against the clock. everything is in rush. i'm completely shocked on how fast the discussions go for 3 hours. yaa but of course we're having a 15-minute break, sometimes, self-proclaimed to a 20-minute break. hahaha.
i was in complete insanity this morning. as i arrived inside the classroom, everybody was studying. really. not a complete noise, some murmur, some talk, about nothing else but about our lessons. "GOSH.." i thought. then i asked my seatmate, cha, who i think came earlier for about a minute than me, "cha, anung meron?" then she said "may long exam daw??". then i was "HAA??! ANO!" i was really surprised coz, God knows, i didn't took my notes home the previous day and left it inside my locker not because of laziness, but knowing it's only wednesday and all of our examinations will be done on fridays. "kala ko ba every friday ang exam?" i said. "eh sabi nila may exam daw eh.." pointing to some of my boy classmates then i was. "okay, walang exam yan. maniwala sila lang pla may sabi eh" haha.
mam dampil came and guess what? i'm just right. no exams. but scheduled on friday. then the flow of the rapid discussions start again. sin cos tan yadayadayada.. seatwork. sin cos tan blahblah. seatwork.. i hope i'll pass this one :]]
finally, it's friday.
this week's my first week for summer classes and this day's the last day i should attend the class for this week. 3 meetings, MWF, were allotted for trigo class. WTF totally NO complete summer vacation for this year. yeah its okay. it's my choice. my TThSatSun will be used to ease and unwind..and i'm starting it at this moment.
im bored yet quite hyped. currently 2:17 in the morning. i have nothing to do. my eyes are telling me to sleep. but im not yet having the exact mood to sleep so i ain't. the last time i was up this late was uhh. can't remember, perhaps, last last week? yaah. i remember. i was into movie-marathon this past months, starting last december. though, technically, kills my 20-20 vision, movie-marathon is still faved. sometimes, my whole day's wittingly dedicated for watching assorted movies from drama to romance to sci-fi and comedy yadayada.. but NOT thriller..it's absolutely boring and dull to watch horror and thrilling movies alone.lol
still bored. and i just killed one roach. aargh! if i were to live alone in this world with lots of cockroaches, better hit the alt + F4 of my life. well what i'm trying to say is, it's a lot better to end my life than to live with roaches. gross.
gawd. i'll try to sleep.
and i'll try to update/post here very much often as i could. babu :]]
my rabbit died. and now.. our 4 newly born puppies died.. and again, because of that stupid dog. or may i say monster!! errrr!!
last november 9 i bought a pair of rabbit..one was small, cute, pure-white-fured rabbit with red eyes and i named it, "annie"; the other was named "james", a cute, grayish-brown-fured rabbit with a pair of big black eyes.. i love it.i love them.i love it when i feed them..the sound of crunchy,munchy vegies..i love the feeling of being a mother to those cute little creatures, well in fact am not a real mother. of course.. haha. they were placed in a cage outside our house..so when i'm out for school and when everybody left the house, they'll be safe.
the first thing i do in the morning before i go to school is to check my rabbits...and that morning was different.it was exactly 2 days after i adopted the rabbits. james was not moving.i knew it.the DOG killed him.i saw james' foot on the ground.my body's shaking from anger..i got a stick and hit that dog really hard. don't care if he's wailing or what.i just know he killed james.i don't have the idea how that stupid dog grabbed the rabbit from the cage..btw, ITS name's cholo. so ugly name.. errr.. annie was safe. i'm so thankful but sad that she'd lost her partner.
"dogs are man's bestfriend"
From that day, i burried that thought ten feet under..
its almost a month since james died..
it's a sunny afternoon,december 16 when shaggy, one of our pet dog gave birth to 4 little cute puppies..i was shocked bcoz i really did'nt knew that shaggy's pregnant.it's just only me in our house that time..mom,came..angela(my sister) came..everyone came..and they were all happy that shaggy did it.wahahaha
but this morning (december 18) is almost the same from THAT morning.. all of a sudden, i just woke up at 4.30am..i heard dogs' noise..fighting.i rushed outside my room then found out that my mom and dad was outside together with my younger brother.they said that cholo accidentally escaped from his cage..then i knew it..he killed the puppies.
i went back again to my room, i cried a little. i remembered my rabbit.. my lifeless rabbit with unattached leg on the ground.whew... i wish i could kill that dog.. i should have killed him.. tssk. those cute little creatures were innocent killed by a monster.i wish i could kill IT.. they are just dogs..they dont have the power of human reasoning so they'll not understand this feeling of human anger..i just wish i could kill IT..
the start of this week was okay.
but last tuesday was really urggh!! :( t'was a boom..really depressing. we had our persuasive speech in english, and elyssa's my partner. both of us chose the topic "should we give alms to street children or not?".. I, for anti, and elyssa for pro. that was the first topic that shrunk in my mind when we were planning a week after tuesday(oct 14)? i think? i really love our topic and i was uhm. a bit excited of course. we made our speeches (wooaah, the speech must last for 5 minutes!)after uhm almost 3 days i think? i've made it, the five-minute speech, then start memorizing. it's quite easy to memorize the speech though it was, let's say, it's too looong.. monday night i kept on memorizing in front of the mirror (with matching facial expressions, really, haha. crazy geek. haha)
then Tuesday came :| English was our first course that day..and i was late, as usual. i thought my professor would force me too sing. (it's in our rules, if a person is late, that person will sing a song.. in front of the class) good i was safe :) my prof seemed to forgot i was about to sing wahaha.. i changed outfit to a formal one, a brown sleeveless with raffles thingy and ribbon at the back; a black slacks; and a pair of brown doll shoes.. me and my partner were the last to deliver our speeches.. mj and olive were the first,and second, lui and jun.. the first 2 pairs were good. though mj and jun tend to forgot some lines. then, finally it's our turn.. my partner was the first to deliver the speech.. and i was her coach.haha i sat on a mono block chair in front while holding a copy of her speech (i whispered the lines that she forgot) haha. she was giggling every time she forgets a line. she unexpectedly produced some funny gestures that made our classmates laugh, even me.. then she ended her speech with her own conclusion.. she sat, then i stood up and walked to the center. i was really nervous. it seemed that the time has stopped. everybody was motionless and directly looking at me. i started speaking.."Do not give them fish, instead teach them how to fish.satisfying is'nt it? uhmm......" (inside of me, i was really confused, i said to myself "i think i forgot the next line?") then after a short pause i said.."ma'am take two! take two!" and they we're all laughing. wahaha. i found my self laughing also. i cleared myself up. and start speaking again. it was a smooth and good start for me, though a lil bit funny. i continue speaking but then in the middle part, the lines were crashing in my mind!! i just heard elyssa whispered the lines to me.. it was really argghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i ended my speech with this
"Street urchins shouldn’t be given alms. We shouldn’t teach them to be beggars. A move must be done and it will start on us, the almsgiver. If we continue to shower them with our pity and sympathy, this country will seriously become a nation of beggars. The quotation says, “Don't just give them fish instead teach them how to fish”. I challenge you, the audience, to think prudently and make a difference."
haay, after that, i sat on my chair.. i was really sad. super.. then our professor called the speakers, and dismissed the rest of the class. she then gave comments and bla bla bla bla... i really can't understand what she was saying, all i knew, was i was really sad. haha i expected too much from myself but then.. argh..
okay. but now, it's alright :) i'm happy that me and my partner did a great job :)
i realized..don't expect too much from yourself, specially in times like this. public speaking or whatsoever. hahaha
im proud of us elyssa godilano! wee haha
til the next speech partner? :)
i've noticed that i keep on updating my blog.
(nyaa, that's gud for me, this just means i have plenty of time in doin' nonsense things.hoho)
okay it's "BER" month! 
tomorrow will be september 1. (AMBILIS.. sobra) it's the start of a long christmas season here in the philippines. cant wait to visit the malls playing christmas songs, gift giving.ehem. for those pipol na ngbabasa nito, can i ask a favor? can i have a gift for christmas?
haha. just kiddin'. of course i dont wanna force you to giv me a gift or sumting.. sa mga kaclose ko nlng ako mangongotong ng regalo..nyaha .pramis i'm really excited. :) HOLIDAY SPIRIT! oh c'mon haha cant wait for Christmas. :) gus2 ko kumpletuhin ang simbang gabi. di pa ko nkakakumpleto iih 
ngbilang ako sa daliri.. 116 days before christmas. so it means medyo mhaba habang oras pa. mrmi pang pwedeng mangyare sa mga araw na un. hay
sa mga nkabasa nito.
ADVANCE Merry Christmas..
ayan ako ngayo'y mgaaral na sa IT. my longtest pa bukas
aun. napaicp lang..
actualy wla pa kong pinagsasabihan nito?haha. iniicp ko kc kung mag'shishift ako ng DAD(digital arts and design) from IT.2year course ang DAD.wala lang.narealize ko lng kc na lahat ng hilig ko,photoshop,photography(haha),web designing. etc etc. ay ginagawa or gagawin ng students ng DAD. para atlist pag graduate ko ng DAD after 2 years, pwede pa akong mag-MAS(multimedia arts and sciences) ng 4 years.para 2 diploma ko. parang c ame. hmm.kaingit.may SLR camera sila.oh gahd. nainggit nanaman ako. haha makakabili din ako ng sriling ganun someday >:) nyahaha.
wala naman ako problema sa kinuha kong program.kso ung prof na namin sa CS ang nagsasabing mahirap tlga ang IT. haha so what? paki ba nya.nyahaha kakayanin ko un no piling xa. nyahaha
pinapalipat naman ako nila annie at kuya mark sa UPLB next sem.gus2 ko.. gus2 ko tlga.haha.para masamahan ko din c annie dun.kaso.. xempre may kaso un.. my problema in short.mukang hindi papayag si ina. eh kung sa Malayan pa nga lang kontra na eh. UP pa kaya? di nga ko pinayagang magUPCAT nuon eh. baliw eh..
hay. aun. aun, cge cge.
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