hey blogspot! im back! it's been so long since i posted my last entry here. sometimes, rather "most" of the time, i'm not in the mood to be online. busy na yoo, i mean nag kukunwaring busy. college na.
so aun, college na nga.super kapanibago. new faces, new klasmates, new environment, new culture, new school. oh god. i miss my old lifestyle, i miss my hs life. rarr. im in my 12th day in first year college. and still. i can't really feel it, o ayoko lang i-feel.haha. emo ako. as in. nkakasama ko lng cna dyra, xiina after classes.
im happy that malayan is providing topics regarding the differences about highschool ang college life. pinapadali nila ung pagaadjust ng estudyante kaya.. aun
out of 40 students, 5-6 lang kame babae every class. c'mon. kmusta nman un? pero aus lang.. natutuwa naman ako kahit papano sa kanila. nkakatawa kc cla lalo na ung mga lalaki, puro kalokohan kaya nakikitawa nlng ako. the lessons are quite easy. di naman sa nagyayabang pero madali talaga. SA NGAYON. hehe maybe after a few weeks? months? saka ko mraramdaman ung tlgang hirap. favorite ko Math, nkakatuwa kc ung prof. pag nakatalikod kmuka ni sir don don. tpos ngcocomedy pa habang ngtuturo npaka'kulit. dipa boring magturo
hay. wala na ko masabi.
nwala na ko sa mood.
GOGO gudlak nalang T_T
without the dark we'd never see the stars.
the entire day i had this feeling of coldness,dullness,emptiness and still i am.it started yesterday and boosted last night after i had a conflict with my mom (i wish i could go somewhere else except in this place). after i woke up this morning still this feeling keeps on haunting me.
i just finished my bath and went outside the house to hang my wet towel...but then i decided to stay longer.i put my hands at the back of my neck and tilted my head at least 140 degrees up to the dark sky. i thought it's still covered by the clouds, like these past nights but i'ts not.the sky is very clear and full of dazzling stars.
this is my favorite scenario of this day!! cold breeze touched me as if washing me up with this melancholic feeling. i just found myself smiling.wahaha! crazy eh? 
but the sad thing is.. i was'nt able to find my favorite group of stars which i named "question mark"..hehe simply because it's in a form of question mark.this group is far from the other stars that makes it one-of-a-kind. anyway, it's all right. i'm sure it would'nt just go away, fade or what.
i used to stare up to the sky every night,hoping a shooting star would drop by to say 'hi'. when i was a kid, i wished to be an astronomer someday but as time goes by, i just felt that being an "astronomer" would'nt suit me!haha. it's a silliest thing being a kid. now, i dream of having a "star gaze" with a group of friends or with a special someone (a friend or who i'm close) haha. some people may say it's boring but for me, i'ts a sweet thing to do.
there are millions of stars.. but only one of them would make my dreams come true. i wish i could catch the right star destined for me..
as of now, i'm okay. a bunch of thanks for the stars.hehe
a shinning shimmering good night to everyone.
time for bed
recently, i've been reading this book written by rick warren,
The Purpose Driven "Life", (40 days of purpose) hehe. i actually finished
reading this book last year but i decided to read it again,just to reinvigorate myself.the author advised to read only 1 chapter per day to provide implications for the reader. uhm, i just finished reading the 3rd chapter and i was like.. ughh.i stunned.pretty amazing 
Listen: Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now unless you hold on to the pain through resentment. your PAST is PAST! nothing will change it. you are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. for your own sake, learn from it, and then let it go.. -- ohhaa!
-i really love this part. haha somewhat striking. 
life 'must' have a purpose, coz if not
it may drive you to nothingness or badly to a dead end.
c'mon. life focuses your purpose. haha!
ur not born to please everybody, focus yourself in their opinions? duuh? ur fucking stupid if that's your case.it's your key to failure. 
i think i need to sleep, it's already 4:34 in the morning.haha
BRAVO! finally i'm sleepy.
according to PAGASA - Philippine Standard Time
the current time is 1:42am. so it means, it's already june2
but.. naah. in my world, still, it's june1 haha.
okay? it was just a 'lil introductory rite.
tomorrow, i mean later. ill be going to letran
my alma mater. hehe today is 'their' first day of school,high school & elem.
( i used to say "it's our first day of school" but i'm done with my elementary and high school life 
hehe)
we will be there just for a visit (me,jhao,wena,xina),also to reminisce? haha!!
our batch t-shirt last year is our costume for tomorrow.honestly, i miss those days. wearing our school uniform, cheating&chatting moments, strolling around the campus..
and i miss myself already! haha miss ko ng magluka ng sobra sobra! i cant do it here at home.not really i "can't"..but i chose not to. i mean, u know the way i act with my frends and here at home is really different.i used to utter thousands of words everytime i'm with my friends. but here, a maximum of 500 words per day? hehe.really
haha.
im chatting with mei now, so i have decided to end this entry here.
"be positve dpat..pero wag sobra, kw dn kc, bka msktan lng..
ako nga ms prepare ko mgng negative kc pra if d mangyari, prepared n ko khit mskit pg nangyre eh d msya db"
--ma.amiella reyes
labyu bakla! haha
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