my rabbit died. and now.. our 4 newly born puppies died.. and again, because of that stupid dog. or may i say monster!! errrr!!
last november 9 i bought a pair of rabbit..one was small, cute, pure-white-fured rabbit with red eyes and i named it, "annie"; the other was named "james", a cute, grayish-brown-fured rabbit with a pair of big black eyes.. i love it.i love them.i love it when i feed them..the sound of crunchy,munchy vegies..i love the feeling of being a mother to those cute little creatures, well in fact am not a real mother. of course.. haha. they were placed in a cage outside our house..so when i'm out for school and when everybody left the house, they'll be safe.
the first thing i do in the morning before i go to school is to check my rabbits...and that morning was different.it was exactly 2 days after i adopted the rabbits. james was not moving.i knew it.the DOG killed him.i saw james' foot on the ground.my body's shaking from anger..i got a stick and hit that dog really hard. don't care if he's wailing or what.i just know he killed james.i don't have the idea how that stupid dog grabbed the rabbit from the cage..btw, ITS name's cholo. so ugly name.. errr.. annie was safe. i'm so thankful but sad that she'd lost her partner.
"dogs are man's bestfriend"
From that day, i burried that thought ten feet under..
its almost a month since james died..
it's a sunny afternoon,december 16 when shaggy, one of our pet dog gave birth to 4 little cute puppies..i was shocked bcoz i really did'nt knew that shaggy's pregnant.it's just only me in our house that time..mom,came..angela(my sister) came..everyone came..and they were all happy that shaggy did it.wahahaha
but this morning (december 18) is almost the same from THAT morning.. all of a sudden, i just woke up at 4.30am..i heard dogs' noise..fighting.i rushed outside my room then found out that my mom and dad was outside together with my younger brother.they said that cholo accidentally escaped from his cage..then i knew it..he killed the puppies.
i went back again to my room, i cried a little. i remembered my rabbit.. my lifeless rabbit with unattached leg on the ground.whew... i wish i could kill that dog.. i should have killed him.. tssk. those cute little creatures were innocent killed by a monster.i wish i could kill IT.. they are just dogs..they dont have the power of human reasoning so they'll not understand this feeling of human anger..i just wish i could kill IT..
the start of this week was okay.
but last tuesday was really urggh!! :( t'was a boom..really depressing. we had our persuasive speech in english, and elyssa's my partner. both of us chose the topic "should we give alms to street children or not?".. I, for anti, and elyssa for pro. that was the first topic that shrunk in my mind when we were planning a week after tuesday(oct 14)? i think? i really love our topic and i was uhm. a bit excited of course. we made our speeches (wooaah, the speech must last for 5 minutes!)after uhm almost 3 days i think? i've made it, the five-minute speech, then start memorizing. it's quite easy to memorize the speech though it was, let's say, it's too looong.. monday night i kept on memorizing in front of the mirror (with matching facial expressions, really, haha. crazy geek. haha)
then Tuesday came :| English was our first course that day..and i was late, as usual. i thought my professor would force me too sing. (it's in our rules, if a person is late, that person will sing a song.. in front of the class) good i was safe :) my prof seemed to forgot i was about to sing wahaha.. i changed outfit to a formal one, a brown sleeveless with raffles thingy and ribbon at the back; a black slacks; and a pair of brown doll shoes.. me and my partner were the last to deliver our speeches.. mj and olive were the first,and second, lui and jun.. the first 2 pairs were good. though mj and jun tend to forgot some lines. then, finally it's our turn.. my partner was the first to deliver the speech.. and i was her coach.haha i sat on a mono block chair in front while holding a copy of her speech (i whispered the lines that she forgot) haha. she was giggling every time she forgets a line. she unexpectedly produced some funny gestures that made our classmates laugh, even me.. then she ended her speech with her own conclusion.. she sat, then i stood up and walked to the center. i was really nervous. it seemed that the time has stopped. everybody was motionless and directly looking at me. i started speaking.."Do not give them fish, instead teach them how to fish.satisfying is'nt it? uhmm......" (inside of me, i was really confused, i said to myself "i think i forgot the next line?") then after a short pause i said.."ma'am take two! take two!" and they we're all laughing. wahaha. i found my self laughing also. i cleared myself up. and start speaking again. it was a smooth and good start for me, though a lil bit funny. i continue speaking but then in the middle part, the lines were crashing in my mind!! i just heard elyssa whispered the lines to me.. it was really argghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i ended my speech with this
"Street urchins shouldn’t be given alms. We shouldn’t teach them to be beggars. A move must be done and it will start on us, the almsgiver. If we continue to shower them with our pity and sympathy, this country will seriously become a nation of beggars. The quotation says, “Don't just give them fish instead teach them how to fish”. I challenge you, the audience, to think prudently and make a difference."
haay, after that, i sat on my chair.. i was really sad. super.. then our professor called the speakers, and dismissed the rest of the class. she then gave comments and bla bla bla bla... i really can't understand what she was saying, all i knew, was i was really sad. haha i expected too much from myself but then.. argh..
okay. but now, it's alright :) i'm happy that me and my partner did a great job :)
i realized..don't expect too much from yourself, specially in times like this. public speaking or whatsoever. hahaha
im proud of us elyssa godilano! wee haha
til the next speech partner? :)
i've noticed that i keep on updating my blog.
(nyaa, that's gud for me, this just means i have plenty of time in doin' nonsense things.hoho)
okay it's "BER" month!
tomorrow will be september 1. (AMBILIS.. sobra) it's the start of a long christmas season here in the philippines. cant wait to visit the malls playing christmas songs, gift giving.ehem. for those pipol na ngbabasa nito, can i ask a favor? can i have a gift for christmas?
ngbilang ako sa daliri.. 116 days before christmas. so it means medyo mhaba habang oras pa. mrmi pang pwedeng mangyare sa mga araw na un. hay
sa mga nkabasa nito.
ADVANCE Merry Christmas..
ayan ako ngayo'y mgaaral na sa IT. my longtest pa bukas 
aun. napaicp lang..
actualy wla pa kong pinagsasabihan nito?haha. iniicp ko kc kung mag'shishift ako ng DAD(digital arts and design) from IT.2year course ang DAD.wala lang.narealize ko lng kc na lahat ng hilig ko,photoshop,photography(haha),web designing. etc etc. ay ginagawa or gagawin ng students ng DAD. para atlist pag graduate ko ng DAD after 2 years, pwede pa akong mag-MAS(multimedia arts and sciences) ng 4 years.para 2 diploma ko. parang c ame. hmm.kaingit.may SLR camera sila.oh gahd. nainggit nanaman ako. haha makakabili din ako ng sriling ganun someday >:) nyahaha.
wala naman ako problema sa kinuha kong program.kso ung prof na namin sa CS ang nagsasabing mahirap tlga ang IT. haha so what? paki ba nya.nyahaha kakayanin ko un no piling xa. nyahaha
pinapalipat naman ako nila annie at kuya mark sa UPLB next sem.gus2 ko.. gus2 ko tlga.haha.para masamahan ko din c annie dun.kaso.. xempre may kaso un.. my problema in short.mukang hindi papayag si ina. eh kung sa Malayan pa nga lang kontra na eh. UP pa kaya? di nga ko pinayagang magUPCAT nuon eh. baliw eh..
hay. aun. aun, cge cge.
hey blogspot! im back! it's been so long since i posted my last entry here. sometimes, rather "most" of the time, i'm not in the mood to be online. busy na yoo, i mean nag kukunwaring busy. college na.
so aun, college na nga.super kapanibago. new faces, new klasmates, new environment, new culture, new school. oh god. i miss my old lifestyle, i miss my hs life. rarr. im in my 12th day in first year college. and still. i can't really feel it, o ayoko lang i-feel.haha. emo ako. as in. nkakasama ko lng cna dyra, xiina after classes.
im happy that malayan is providing topics regarding the differences about highschool ang college life. pinapadali nila ung pagaadjust ng estudyante kaya.. aun
out of 40 students, 5-6 lang kame babae every class. c'mon. kmusta nman un? pero aus lang.. natutuwa naman ako kahit papano sa kanila. nkakatawa kc cla lalo na ung mga lalaki, puro kalokohan kaya nakikitawa nlng ako. the lessons are quite easy. di naman sa nagyayabang pero madali talaga. SA NGAYON. hehe maybe after a few weeks? months? saka ko mraramdaman ung tlgang hirap. favorite ko Math, nkakatuwa kc ung prof. pag nakatalikod kmuka ni sir don don. tpos ngcocomedy pa habang ngtuturo npaka'kulit. dipa boring magturo
hay. wala na ko masabi.
nwala na ko sa mood.
GOGO gudlak nalang T_T
without the dark we'd never see the stars.
the entire day i had this feeling of coldness,dullness,emptiness and still i am.it started yesterday and boosted last night after i had a conflict with my mom (i wish i could go somewhere else except in this place). after i woke up this morning still this feeling keeps on haunting me.
i just finished my bath and went outside the house to hang my wet towel...but then i decided to stay longer.i put my hands at the back of my neck and tilted my head at least 140 degrees up to the dark sky. i thought it's still covered by the clouds, like these past nights but i'ts not.the sky is very clear and full of dazzling stars.
i used to stare up to the sky every night,hoping a shooting star would drop by to say 'hi'. when i was a kid, i wished to be an astronomer someday but as time goes by, i just felt that being an "astronomer" would'nt suit me!haha. it's a silliest thing being a kid. now, i dream of having a "star gaze" with a group of friends or with a special someone (a friend or who i'm close) haha. some people may say it's boring but for me, i'ts a sweet thing to do.
there are millions of stars.. but only one of them would make my dreams come true. i wish i could catch the right star destined for me..
as of now, i'm okay. a bunch of thanks for the stars.hehe
a shinning shimmering good night to everyone.
time for bed
recently, i've been reading this book written by rick warren,
The Purpose Driven "Life", (40 days of purpose) hehe. i actually finished
reading this book last year but i decided to read it again,just to reinvigorate myself.the author advised to read only 1 chapter per day to provide implications for the reader. uhm, i just finished reading the 3rd chapter and i was like.. ughh.i stunned.pretty amazing
Listen: Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now unless you hold on to the pain through resentment. your PAST is PAST! nothing will change it. you are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. for your own sake, learn from it, and then let it go.. -- ohhaa!
-i really love this part. haha somewhat striking.
life 'must' have a purpose, coz if not
it may drive you to nothingness or badly to a dead end.
c'mon. life focuses your purpose. haha!
ur not born to please everybody, focus yourself in their opinions? duuh? ur fucking stupid if that's your case.it's your key to failure. 
i think i need to sleep, it's already 4:34 in the morning.haha
BRAVO! finally i'm sleepy.
according to PAGASA - Philippine Standard Time
the current time is 1:42am. so it means, it's already june2
but.. naah. in my world, still, it's june1 haha.
okay? it was just a 'lil introductory rite.
tomorrow, i mean later. ill be going to letran
my alma mater. hehe today is 'their' first day of school,high school & elem.
( i used to say "it's our first day of school" but i'm done with my elementary and high school life 
we will be there just for a visit (me,jhao,wena,xina),also to reminisce? haha!!
our batch t-shirt last year is our costume for tomorrow.honestly, i miss those days. wearing our school uniform, cheating&chatting moments, strolling around the campus..
and i miss myself already! haha miss ko ng magluka ng sobra sobra! i cant do it here at home.not really i "can't"..but i chose not to. i mean, u know the way i act with my frends and here at home is really different.i used to utter thousands of words everytime i'm with my friends. but here, a maximum of 500 words per day? hehe.really
haha.
im chatting with mei now, so i have decided to end this entry here.
"be positve dpat..pero wag sobra, kw dn kc, bka msktan lng..
ako nga ms prepare ko mgng negative kc pra if d mangyari, prepared n ko khit mskit pg nangyre eh d msya db"
--ma.amiella reyes
labyu bakla! haha
section -- A53
room -- 304
aun ginaya ko lng ung mga ngpost ng sked sa multiply.. ;D hehe kakaenrol ko lng nung saturday.. sayang wala me kilala klasm8. A51 cla. ako A53 nyak. aus lng manganga'pit bahay nlng ako? lapit naman room eh.. EMO ako! gahd. haha
pan'umaga me eber..la klase ng friday at sunday, PE ng monday. tsk ayus lng hehe
gaahd! my front tooth really hurts!
tortured gums
throbbing.
it's tearing my nerves.
it's burning.
it's freezing.
almost 3 days of disaster..
sadness T_T
i'll visit a dentist tomorrow. gosh.
my mom can't accompany me today coz she's SO BUSY.
anyway, tomorrow is the day. hope the dentist could fix my tooth. T_T
the last time i had a toothache, i think when i was in my 8th year of breathing? sigh T_T
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